Falling In Love for the first time

I didn't really know what love means until I was 28 years old. Thats really old isn't it. I know some people fall in love when they were in high school or university. But for me it came quite late. Maybe because I was hard to approach. There were boyfriends but none of them lasted long enough or managed to secure my heart.

My first true love was unexpected in many ways. It happened when I was send by my company for two weeks training overseas. There were representative from several countries - Mexico, USA, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Korea, Phillipines and Malaysia. From the whole group there were only two ladies. Let me name the other lady as Jane. It was my first trip to the country. The team that organized the training was very friendly and helpful. There was one guy that stands out from the rest. Let me name him GaP. I have actually met him before in Malaysia. But at that time we were not introduced. I was surprised when I met him there. He was considered one of the seniors.

The first week went well. The visiting team had fun together shopping and finding places to eat for dinner. Since lunch was provided at the office, the visiting and home team would sit down together for a chat. It was a fun session. Language was not a problem since all of us speak English. Then came the weekend and we had an outing session. We went out in three cars. One of them was Gap. I went with Gap, Jane and two other guys (Kim from Korea and Victor from Mexico). The plan was to visit the tourist attraction center which provides local handicrafts. Then we would go outskirts of the city. We were in good hands so we just followed.

Before going to the local tourist attraction, Gap actually drop by his home. Gap has several sisters and brothers. Looking at his family photo they were very good looking. Victor asked me if I preferred one of Gap brothers. I told him that I would still chose Gap over the rest. Why did I say that! Had I unconsciously like him?

So when we were travelling to the outskirts of the city we went to this retreat that has a swimming pool and climb a really high tower to see the scenery of the city from afar. Jane and Gap decided to take a dip in the pool. I had the most akward feeling of seeing them together. I just don't know why. Of course Jane is a beautiful lady. She is very smart, attractive and fun to be with. Compared to me. I am considered very quiet, perhaps boring and not at all photogenic. And I am also much older than Gap. It would be the most natural thing to choose Jane over me wouldn't it? So I faced my back to them and asked Kim and Victor to sing songs in their traditional language. Kim really knows how to sing. I really enjoyed the singing eventhough I don't understand the language.

After they finished swimming, Gap asked me a really weird question- 'Where will you be?' 'Why here of course' was my answer. Where else would I go while they were changing clothes? Anyway he is the driver. I have to wait for him eventhough my heart is aching. Afterwards we all went for dinner and then back to the hotel. When we reached the hotel, Gap send me off to my room. He did not send Jane, Victor or Kim to their rooms. So I said goodnight, goodbye and thank you before shutting the door on his face. What else was I supposed to do?

That Sunday seems to be the longest time of my life. I was falling apart. I couldn't sleep. I was just thinking about Gap. Seriously I never felt this way about a guy before. It was crazy.